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Wednesday, 19 May 2010 12:08 am
you know..i can never understand how people do it when they say 'im sad' or 'im angry' and so they just put on earplugs, and on very loud music.. how does they help you. for me it doesnt get me distracted. on the contrary i feel worse. my brain will keep generating new thoughts.. however loud the music is.. whichever upbeat song i play.. it will just not help and be in the background.. so. music doesnt help me AT ALL. however; TV, youtube, going out, alcohol , talking to random people like yong gui , ila, gariel , dolly, jovi.... it helps.. there may be some blank spaces here and there.. but on the whole.. it helps. ((: i think that for me.. visual and auditory distraction combined is good.. it keeps my brain working on somethings else without running away from me and telling me stuff i dont want to listen.. frankly. dear blog. i tired and scared of people aroud me dying.. im petrified. so when i hear another news about someone dying.. i put on a smile and run away.. i dont want to think.. i dont even go and see her anymore.. im just running and running even though its constantly at the back of my head.. it seems like im better of avoiding and running away.. who knows when someones going to die. i dont want to be hurt anymore. Thursday, 13 May 2010 10:03 pm
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you wont even think about.. you wont even come close.. not even near the smoke from the iceberg. just dont. dont get me started. so many things you dont know about me. nobody knows. and thats what it'll be. silent. and thats what i'll be. superficial. Tuesday, 4 May 2010 11:00 pm
i was brought up into the world with innocence and trust.. but innocence, peace and trust is not what governs this world. what governs this world is of hatred, lies, deceit, backstabbing, and heart breaking.when i met society, i found that there were still many lessons life had to offer.. and they were not easy.. next time, when/ if i have children.. i will teach them the ways of society. i will teach them not to trust any tom dick or harry. i will teach them that people are prone to change. i will teach them to choose their friends well. i will teach them that people, if threatened, will by all means stab you in the back at the least expected times. i will teach them life is never a bed of roses and that they should be wary of those around them. i will teach them to be like the society. i will teach them to change and manipulate people or environments around them. i will teach them about relationships, to be the one to cause the heartache. i will teach them to backstab. i will teach them to lie. i will teach them the wicked ways of the world. this i will teach so that society will not turn against them, but they will be the society that turns against others. this i will teach so that their hearts will be less prone to hurt. this i will teach to ensure survival for them. |