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Thursday, 31 December 2009 3:22 pm
it pisses me off when people are not sincere.you either ask, or dont ask. and when you ask, you better mean it.. its revolting to know such people.. know why? because when they ask you, you know that their sooo not sincere. its damn bloody obvious. since their not sincere, they want you to say no, most of the time.. but refusing them is not polite.. so what are u going to do?? yes or no? for me, since i know its gonna be super super awkward.. i'll say no. but.... i don't know how to say this.. i want to be comfortable, since i know them for like couple of years already, but yet we r still not that close.. even the longest friend i know, im also not that close. cause i feel that its damn awkward. ='( i cant say anymore cause i dunno how to say it.. but even if i say it, nothings gonna change the way things work.. so for now, i guess im gonna forever gonna be saying.. "i got other plans, not going.. (:" or, i guess i'll save my msg n b silent mode.. 2010's right at our doorstep next year's gonna b a hard tough year.. esp. when i now know that, friends, are not what they seem to be. when they seem to be yr good friends, ones that will stick to you and never go away.. those were all lies. you got to stand by yourself. cause life's actually not that nice. and Bible says, life's a bunch of tests and trials.. everybody has them, why should they help you when they have their own stuff, own problems? this year, i've changed the way i think. i'm not going to go around thanking and thanking.. my resolution next year, is to learn how to stand on my own feet. not to trust people easily, not to hope too much. because then, i wont get hurt so easily at things that are small and minute. happy new year. |