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Wednesday, 30 September 2009 9:37 pm
UPDATED.(2150hrs, 30/09/2009) super emo today.. cause had to go waste time and waste money.. but mona came to find me and made my day.. =D thank you babes!! i've been thinking.. on my birthday.. i want to go lao pa sat to eat supper.. then go esplanade outside stay up the whole night.. with uber close close friends like marhaini, ayu, ila, mona and dolly.. (: i miss them all.. then that weekend can go clubbing.. and wear something, "boomz!" :D drinks on me i remember.. (: i miss the company of dawn and joshua and eujinn and jean and shaun and jonathon and all.. but i guess i choose to move on.. to be the odd one out.. well, thats forever me in church.. i'll never be comfortable. aisha's wedding this coming saturday.. i wonder whos able to go.. i want to go! i hope ila doesnt suddenly want to out.. then leave me alone.. cause, marhaini's not going.. ayus going awhile only and liping.. -.- liping got nothing to wear so maybe not going. i think i wear that time wear to babe birthday wann la.. long sleeve so ok.. -cross fingers- tomorrow is childrens day.. to all those child-at-hearts; happy childrens day!!! (: (0910hrs,30/09/2009) mummy, can't you see its so hard for me to keep going for appointments? can't you let me not go? mummy im tired. im tired of wasting money to see that im still fine, my bodys still working. im tired of wasting time to go all the way. even more so, now that i have to go alone. ='( its really like the song by beyonce, LISTEN. sometimes i just wish..... sometimes i just wish..... maybe i could turn time round, back into the womb? or maybe i could, stop my heart during the operation? or maybe, my heart would just give up. just like i did. Tuesday, 29 September 2009 12:40 am
probably im being judgmental..but i think the guys in my class are seriously lousy. rayson- he a tiko through and through. i still remember first year first sem, he still wanted to challenge my results. ha! good for him. now he stay back 1 sem. i laugh. yong gui- 原本以为他是ok的。没想到原来他是那么得令人失望。in the end also results down the drain, and no more nursing. hexun- i believe, in life, most of what he knows is to complian. i mean, what he is now, he brought it on himself what. why the nonsense is he blaming the whole world and also drag others to help him when he doesnt really help himself. yes, he keeps saying he will 'jiayou' and study hard. but come down to the basics, he burns late night oil. ohh almost forget jamal- actually he nothing much. didnt talk to him much and vice versa. but when he needs help.. its like your debted to him to help. luckily i not so ngam with him. even though i know him from secondary.. i really really wonder. why cant the guys in my class be like eriko or gariel or JP.. somehow, im really disappointed. if yong gui reads this, sorry. but i really really thought you could. **note to self- sarah tan.. stop trying, stop getting your hopes up. cause its not going to work. its gone. ohh; thank you jean for the note. (: Friday, 25 September 2009 12:48 pm
holidays are here, and i have nothing to do..so im here to blog.. (: attachment is over.! yayy! this time the attachment, not bad.. (: i guess cause the CI was super nice.. i thought she was aiming me at first.. but looking around at everybody else, i guess i can say that my theory base was quite weak.. especially the medications.. met different types of people during attachment.. and they taught me many different things like having ample knowledge, but don't know how to apply, having ample knowledge and helping other people, or having some knowledge and want to teach people who know more than you.. being double-faced, or people who talks behind your back but pretend to be close to you.. i knew there were people in the world like that.. but it didnt really occur to me that people like that would, i don't know, appear like that.. the world is vicious. i should learn how to observe people like fazila.. =D shes really super spot on.. exam results are out! and i didnt fail anything! (: yes im super happy and contented and all.. hahaa! looking back to the exam period.. =/ it was soo uber super stress cause it was straight after attachments.. 3 days to study.. so stressed like mad then still have to do housework.. -sigh- but luckily, no supp paper!! especially for adult nursing.. i think i failed the paper.. cause 20marks question didnt really do.. and also because presentation our group got A, but overall marks i got D+.. =X althought im glad i dont have any supp paper, but im a little bit disappointed that dispite working and studying to hard.. my results were mostly Cs and Ds.. maybe more Cs would be better.. however, my GPA did improve though.. (: from 1.7 to a close to 1.9.. but im jealous of ames, his GPA improve by 0.4.. announce over msn somemore.. tsk. =D speaking of ames.. he got a part time job at the F1 thing.. iknowright! so good! yesterday idayu invited me to her open house for hari raya.. this saturday afternoon.. but i also want to go to church listen to the sermon cause special speaker and he also will be talking about the truth about harry potter and the games and occult and all.. super interesting i wann to listen.. but then idayus open house.. =( its hard to decide. been watching the 9pm show recently.. its very nice!! and also very heartbreaking.. when he died then the ex-girlfriend found his diary.. -sigh- i think the song on the show < when i die.. i want that song at my funeral.. =D just finish watching marley and me, bride wars and shopaholic.. wohoo!! of all.. shopaholic is not say very nice.. cause.. doesnt really follow the story line other than the last part about the green scarf.. i cant wait for new moon and coraline to come out in movies!! =D tonight the attachment people going out for supper.. i hope everyone can go.. (: Friday, 18 September 2009 8:46 am
HAPPY BIRTHDAY MARHAINI!!!YOUR 1 YEAR OLDER, 1 YEAR WISER, 1 YEAR CLOSER TO HAVING A FOOTBALL TEAM!!!!! =D Thursday, 17 September 2009 10:25 pm
According to AsiaOne[[http://www.asiaone.com/News/AsiaOne%2BNews/Malaysia/Story/A1Story20090917-168346.html]] EEEWWWW!!!!!!!!!!!!! walaoeh! so gross cann! i got nothing more to say.. except today was uber fun.. (: talking to the B32 uncle.. bitching about the Jsquares.. also saw chia at canteen during break.. (: today was funnest maxed. =D Wednesday, 16 September 2009 10:45 pm
yayys! blogger is fixed..(: so long never blog already.. had stinkin attachments at ward29.. not bad la the ward.. the staff there are really nice except *ahem* i shan't mention names.. =X i kena scolding from some teacher.. then the staff nurses all very good.. =D especially when staff nurse nurul she told me if got any queries or anything cann ask her.. and EN lili ask me go break.. so sweet of them.. (: this week was super super hectic.. no wait this 3weeks.. i dont know how to say.. but attachments really make my stress level shot up especially when its this ward.. and the CI also was not helping much.. didnt think i perform really well this attachments.. and i also keep thinking that me and ward29, 8words not together.. really damn sian.. then like i keep saying gariel.. like the gathered sian-ness, anger and bad feelings all throw at him when i see him from 1-3.. feel so sorry to him.. =/ i realised, i work with people who are double faced. and im not afraid to name them.. jamie, JP and maybe amalina. seriously double faced. for jamie right.. just plain talking about the case study, she choose patient A.. then we gathered all the information already.. then she come and say "oh this is not the patient i choose, i want to change patient" walaoeh! then this JP.. i think right, we see him during attachment is acting all only.. who knows what goes on in his brain.. i think alot of people dont understand what im trying to say.. but i'll try.. during attachments right.. he will zi-high then try to infect the people around him.. at first i thought he very nice wann.. then yesterday when i msg him all he just reply a "Lol".. like not interested? i dont know what to say lah.. but i think he realy quite 2-faced.. then today he keep aski ng people to add him on msn because he talk to liping sian already.. i then talk to him sian already leh! tsk! then the SSN... oh goodness! LMAO!! ohh! ask me and i'll tell you.. super lazy to write everything here.. =D attachments are coming to an end!! lalala~ i hope next time they post me to a nice ward.. like 47.. with dylia.. (: i super hope next week when results come out got NO supp paper.. next week.. hope thursday cann go out swensons with ames.. and maybe jo? i don't know see where things lead me.. and friday got supper with xueming all.. (: whee~ okaes.. i shall end my post here.. ya la ya la.. very short lah! :D |