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Friday, 15 May 2009 11:16 pm
i want to shout and say alot alot of things.. but i dont know who i can trust..in the end.. all that i'll say is something that is light and not what i want to say at all.. so i'll just spew something here.. some things.. i gotta get of my back. but, im just venting, i probly have no idea what im talking about.. my heart wrenches when i think about church, church friends, life in church. i think, i was almost never comfortable in church.. because, absolutely nobody knows that im actually loud, that im actually hyper like crazy.. in church, i feel like a irritating bug that people just want to get rid of. i feel like, im doing something wrong everytime i make a move. i feel invisible, lost, uncomfortable. i know Father God loves me, but, it seems like he's the only one for me, just about everyone is against me. i want, the class to go back to normal. i want, the da jies to take care of the class again. i want, no biasness. i want, closeness and no bitchin, backstabbing or hurts. i love love them all.. i know, that the da jies want to practice.. i know that maybe they don't know everything.. but, just maybe, you would include everyone too? i don't know, but im quite happy yet not very happy.. i dont know. (: nobody/ no class is perfect anyways.. (: and right now, i love them to bits.. but if only joy, hexun and yong gui is always around too.... i love joy for being at the lift and coming out to 'zi high' cause i needed it.. (: |