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Friday, 29 May 2009 9:39 am
sometimes, its those closest to you that bring you down..i am not being emosi terganggu., just realistic. yesterday was FUN! (: popeyes!, flyer!, ... and.. RAT. hahaa! Wednesday, 27 May 2009 11:52 pm
HAPPY BIRTHDAY TOOO, BABE!!!!  (: Tuesday, 26 May 2009 11:47 pm
big thank you for babe for the 2nd week macs cup!!!yayys!!! iloveyou!!!! thursday. (: Friday, 22 May 2009 11:32 pm
oh,MYGOSH!how about some people are just soooo inconsiderate about life.. why in the nonsensical crap do you bring your Adult Nursing project to do ask the Bio lecturer lahh.. and then take 10 thousand years to ask, question by question okay.. ohmygoodness! what is WRONG with you people.. i even fell asleep waiting lahh!! and then the BEST, MOST AWESOME question you ask the DOCTOR.. "WHAT IS THE NURSING MANAGEMENT FOR SUCH PATIENT?" what in the WHAT??? you go and ask doctor about the nursing management.. *clap clap clap* sooooo smart rite?! *rolls eyes* im soooo AMAZED that the lecturer have the freaking patience to answer those freakin' dumb questions of yours lahh.. OHMYGOSH. and you still have the cheek to come and nua me and "never say hello to me ah?" please lahh.. how about 1 tight slap.?? oh, no wait. your not even worth it to make my hand pain. i mean, me and dolly waiting there like gundos, thinking 'waahh, soo hardworking..' right? wth! go down and see what they talking about.. AN project work.. BEST. year 2 got alot of projects and tests and what the wadever it is lahh.. and is all like within 2 weeks kind.. wah lau, cannot wait for holiday, church camp, in june cann.. hahaa! somemore i leader.. *PENG SAN* how about i dont even have the organising skills lahh.. goodness! im soo blur like sotong.! i realise i have lost touch with my cheena!! lols! shall try to talk as much cheena in school from now on.. hahaa! and also go north canteen eat cheap food already.. 0.0 am i soooo POK-ed or what.. tsk. still want to go out huh sarah tan? still want to go watch night at the museum 2 lahh.. really POK then you know ah sarah tan! lols!! *wahh! die oso must watch night at the museum 2 mann! or go buy during camp also cann.. =P* i cant believe like my schedules soo darn packed and crashed but im still quite relaxing relaxing lahh.. must draw out schedule and paste on wall already.. -tests b4 holidays, plus babe birthday, plus Dolly Tan birthday.. -presentations after holidays, plus during holidays no time to do project.. wahh, think about this.. SEH already.. *oink.* i hope next week sometime can go gloria jeans buy ginger bread man, plus go nyp shop buy dunno what for Dolly Tan, plus go macs dere buy cake, plus go get the macs cup, plus go et sushi with and Dolly, plus plus plus.. come to think about it.. i think next week i'll spend about 100.. lols! POK ALREADY!!! ARGH! -this are the rare times when i regret not going to sign bond.. lols! -seriously hope the tyg cann wake up -seriously hope my GPA is enough to go sign bond next sem *Daddy God help me.. * Thursday, 21 May 2009 9:35 am
i are lazy to post anything.nothing to post also.. meh. Friday, 15 May 2009 11:16 pm
i want to shout and say alot alot of things.. but i dont know who i can trust..in the end.. all that i'll say is something that is light and not what i want to say at all.. so i'll just spew something here.. some things.. i gotta get of my back. but, im just venting, i probly have no idea what im talking about.. my heart wrenches when i think about church, church friends, life in church. i think, i was almost never comfortable in church.. because, absolutely nobody knows that im actually loud, that im actually hyper like crazy.. in church, i feel like a irritating bug that people just want to get rid of. i feel like, im doing something wrong everytime i make a move. i feel invisible, lost, uncomfortable. i know Father God loves me, but, it seems like he's the only one for me, just about everyone is against me. i want, the class to go back to normal. i want, the da jies to take care of the class again. i want, no biasness. i want, closeness and no bitchin, backstabbing or hurts. i love love them all.. i know, that the da jies want to practice.. i know that maybe they don't know everything.. but, just maybe, you would include everyone too? i don't know, but im quite happy yet not very happy.. i dont know. (: nobody/ no class is perfect anyways.. (: and right now, i love them to bits.. but if only joy, hexun and yong gui is always around too.... i love joy for being at the lift and coming out to 'zi high' cause i needed it.. (: . feeling very uncertain about things right now.. used to be thankful of it.. but now im fearful.. shouldnt have decided on the spot to go VJC tomorrow.. i regret. but im still going.. i want to watch night at the museum 2! (: i want to sleep early today.. i want to go mothers day celebration dinner tomorrow.. i want to play bridge.. i want to go malaysia during youth camp and stay with becky.. i want to go buy mp3 this coming IT fair.. goodness i want soo many things.. hahaa! im soo greedy.. =P Thursday, 14 May 2009 7:53 pm
An Old Lady's PoemWhat do you see, nurses, what do you see? What are you thinking when you're looking at me? A crabby old woman, not very wise, Uncertain of habit, with faraway eyes? Who dribbles her food and makes no reply When you say in a loud voice, "I do wish you'd try!" Who seems not to notice the things that you do, And forever is losing a stocking or shoe... Who, resisting or not, lets you do as you will, With bathing and feeding, the long day to fill... Is that what you're thinking? Is that what you see? Then open your eyes, nurse: you're not looking at me. I'll tell you who I am as I sit here so still, As I do at your bidding, as I eat at your will. I'm a small child of ten... with a father and mother, Brothers and sisters, who love one another. A young girl of sixteen, with wings on her feet, Dreaming that soon now a lover she'll meet. A bride soon at twenty... my heart gives a leap, Remembering the vows that I promised to keep. At twenty-five now, I have young of my own, Who need me to guide, and a secure happy home. A woman of thirty, my young now grown fast, Bound to each other with ties that should last. At forty, my young sons have grown and are gone, But my husband's beside me to see I don't mourn. At fifty once more,babies play round my knee, Again we know children, my loved one and me. Dark days are upon me, my husband is dead; I look at the future, I shudder with dread. For my young are all rearing young of their own, And I think of the years and the love that I've known. I'm now an old woman... and nature is cruel; 'Tis jest to make old age look like a fool. The body, it crumbles, grace and vigor depart, There is now a stone where I once had a heart. But inside this old carcass a young girl still dwells, And now and again my battered heart swells. I remember the joys, I remember the pain, And I'm loving and living life over again. I think of the years... all too few, gone too fast, And accept the stark fact that nothing can last. So open your eyes,nurses, open and see, Not a crabby old woman; look closer...see ME!! when i read this.. i just want to keep remind that people invlolved in the healthcare aspect.. yes, we grow tired of the turnovers, and the many "f-ed" patients.. but i believe beneath all that, is just plain heart to heart touch that is needed.. not hardware, but HEARTware.. so next time, i go attachment.. all i want to do.. is touch the hearts. (: Tuesday, 12 May 2009 10:35 pm
HAPPY BIRTHDAY KAN YUAN PING!!! (: look how concentrated she is on her cake.. hahaa!today is yuan ping's birthday! it was fun! we celebrated at the small 'ting zi' (hut?)there.. cause macs no more space you see.. so we gathered there.. sheena went to get the cake, gloria and joy went to get the ketchup and mayo.. =D we also realised nobody brought lighter.. -,- so after they sang happy birthday to yuan ping, they smashed her with the sauces.. =D  here.! (: and again.. pictures all over facebook.. then after school mum and dad came to fetch me cause they went to mandai cause today xiao yi poh last day.. i heard my grandmother had rained.. i believed after that maybe she forgot.. or refuse to remember. after all shes the last flower left of the three.. after that went back to grans place to eat.. i hope liana recovers fast fast.. i believe nobody read my blog already.. hahaa! nevermind! i realise.. when i blog i feel like i write alot alot.. but then after that when i post it up.. like i didnt write anything much.. goodness! i think i must go and train trian trian myself to write long long long essay or something.. dont you think that my posts all like very short? hahaa! that time my brother saw me blogging then after a while i finish.. then he look over and " huh? your blog post so short wann ah?" -,- Monday, 11 May 2009 9:10 pm
i know why i have been in such a bitchy mood the past week already...stupid hormones acting without a warning.. so now im just really really hungry even though i have eaten.. bah. im so sad my milo dinosaur cup serene jie jie got me was broken by my unty and then THROWN AWAY.. =( almost broke down crying.. seems like alot of things are slipping from my grasp.. apparently i was easily pissed of that day.. and so were you.. whatever and whatever it will be, it will be then.. im too lazy or tired to say anything more.. i realise.. it hard to feel happy these few days.. and church, its the toughest place to feel some happiness.. its not that im saying the church is bad or God is 'something something'.. no. im just... tired. of trying hard without any progress.. " The less you talk, the more you're heard" saw this quote on the bus that day.. its bullshit crap. the more i keep quiet, the more people dont listen.. and i tried being myself at church.. but,... aiya. whatever. i cant be bothered about it anymore.. and with church camp coming.. how i wish like, the swine flu will be here and camo will be cancelled or something (whatever God has in store). im just soooo frustrated and i dont want to give anymore chances, because im sick of wasting my emotions over nothing, cause nothing changes.
school, mona, ayu, marhaini, ila, dolly, joy, hexun, caoxin, jamal.. they are my emotional food, they keep me real, they keep my feet on the ground and still i have fun. without them i will really crash. thank you, just because. (:
death ain't "just a change of address", damn it!! Saturday, 9 May 2009 12:29 pm
death.expected. yet, shocked. was still thinking of her that morning.. wanting to go visit her one last time.. but it was too late. Thursday, 7 May 2009 8:44 pm
today i realise i've changed..i used to think.. the more people die, the better.. cause then, the number of animals vs. the number of people would be 'equaller' then, today ramona asked me.. ' what if it happened to you?' and my reply was ' it has already happened'.. ' so do you want it to keep happening?' she replied.. and i kept quiet. "i guess not." imma bitch these few days, gossiping about people, bitching and getting pissed off without thinking.. im terribly sorry to those who i have offended.. i'll be back to quite the normal soon.. and probably i wont be screaming in people's ear in school that much.. (: but i still like to randomly sing some random song to people i see.. apparently this few days is the last line of 'happy birthday'.. bear with it. (: i realise, that some things, even though you try to change it/her/him, it doesn't/will never change. and you just have to cope with it and reign the tears in when all you want to do is cry a flood.. kudos to you who are so brave and strong.. am looking forward to the weekends! daddy birthday tomorrow, and then sunday is MOTHERS DAY!! hahaa! i hope something good will happen!! =D Monday, 4 May 2009 11:04 pm
my stomachs so darn pain lah..wah lao lizards lah!! then coudn't sleep the whole night.. and lao sai-ed the whole night.. and still lao sai-ing.. =,= at least, im happy i passed my hypo count test.. (: cause this means i can remember the assessment! hahaa! *ahem* you see, hypocount is easier in the hospital, cause most of the time is implementation.. and also if you want to assess in the hospital, by the time nurses assess every patient, have to work double shift liao.. worst than OT lo.. =D im sooooo craving for sooooo many many things but most of what i cann eat is half bland and warm drinks.. super hope my stomach recovers asap! den i cann eat n drink cold drinks to the happiness! =D and also, i think all the schools are doing the temperature monitering thing already.. like when you go take your temperature, its like going to the airpot.. like, this door frame thing you step through to see when your temerature is of normal range, then look at a camera, walk a few steps, tap your card, take a sticker and your done.. i thought is some like, stick the thermonmeter into the ear lo.. i think the thermonmeter thing is funner.. hahaa.. i think, the church should unorganise themself.. hahaa! its sooooo statistically incline and sooo many double meanings.. its a bit screwed.. i seriously have never seen a 'family' sooo damn organised.. i mean, the pastor said he should start trying to be a 'father to the church'.. dumb, dumb,dumb,dumb. please open your fat assed eyes and SEE that everyone is soo uncomfortable.. open your eyes and SEE that what yo created is a profit orgaisation and not a 'family'.. even the youth, which is supposed to be wild and everything is sooo catagerised and carefully thought.. i think you just dont understand the meaning of CELLS.. cells are the most basic, it also has a membrane covering it to secure and protect.. you are sooo dumb to go break the cell and like, put a muscular cell with a nervous cell, kind of thing.. please lahh.. wake up. thats sooo damn dumb.. and im sooo sooo irritated by this, i mean, you were so comfortable doing your own thing and slowly growing.. then WHAM.. change change change*snap snap snap* then those who change have to drop back to practically NIL and start to freaking go make connections again.. cann you be more decisive, cann you be like the H1N1 flu.. when it hits, it decides to hit as hard as it cann.. dont waver like a fanny.. its damn disgusting. and once you make a bloody damn decision, freaking stick to it lahh.. wa lao eh.. okae.. i have vented alot.. hahaa.. many thanks to the great yixian for listening to me venting it out.. cause it really means alot to have a friend and confidient who is most of the time willing to listen and is never in a bad mood.. yayys! thank God for giving me such a leader and a friend.. (: today i was talking to dolly when we were eating lunch.. and she wanted to get desserts.. cause the koufu was quite noisy, i heard as LIZARDS.. hahaa.! she she said 'i give you 5 dollars you go help me catch 500 lizards lah'.. then i told her ask her get her boyfriend help her.. and dolly that woman said.. 'ask the R(someone that some of you know.. tiko*cough cough*) to help lah.......(pause)...... eh nonono.. later catch already then ownself eat them..' hahaa! okae.. if you dont understand never mind! its something like a insider joke.. =D Saturday, 2 May 2009 1:53 pm
yesterday was ayus engagement..ohmygosh she looked sooo prettayee!! then went to jurong point with joy, yuan ping, sheena, ying gui, hexun, dolly and jun yong.. ate long john silver, walked around, then around 8pm the joy, yuan ping and sheena had to go home.. so left hexun, yong gui, me, dolly and jun yong.. decided to play pool at city hall.. (yayy! i learn how to play pool! hahaa!) played until about 11.30.. then yong gui, hexun, dolly and jun yong caught the last train home.. mummy and daddy come and fetch me.. (: and i hope hexun got the bus home from tampines instead of cabbing home.. pictures all over the facebook.. cause i didnt bring camera.. |
im not quiet. it is either i don't know what are you talking about, or you don't/ don't want to listen.